27/09/2008

Well Guys
I'm leaving for vietnam in 3 hours. Its 12.07am atm. i have to wake up at 4am ish.
So, considering all the possibilities, i'll give you guys something to miss me about :)
Alphabetical Order?

*my group*

Amy Ford: I hope everything turns out right. i know you got lots in your mind. lets hope in 10 days i get a nice, ready to go amy. :D

Ebony Larrea: thanks for opening me up. though you kinda forced me. but it you shut up :) . i WOULD tell you. but i CANT. i cant tell anyone whos THAT close to me. hope you understand

Jenny Tran: Please take care of yourself. dont burn any more parts of your body. And keep your virginity. we can talk about it if you want when i get back.

Joannie Le: Yes, i shall study jap hard so i can ace our speaking thing. dont worry. and omg. watch supernatural for me D: and keep the link for me! PLEASE AND THANKS. and see you at your city trip. Thanks for saying i wont die all the time.

Judy Tran: ah.. judy.. so many things to say.. so not bothered. Well. your game has been shipped. And im getting my dollar refunded XD. so everythings cool. Dont't be such a hobo all the time and you should prepare a list of big words for me to use :D .

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Amelia: i know you'll be EVER SO BORED without me. and i will try my best to find a computer with internet. Dont be sad all the time. and hope things get better. i wont be there to annoy you anymore so yay?

Jennifer Huynh: I hope i dont see any ghosts. if i do. i'll bring them back for them to greet you. :D . i'll bring some tea for you maybe? if im bothered to go through quarantine . i duno how to spell. well happy holidays to you.

Sarah Le: Sorry for scaring you. and making you teary. i dont have cancer :P . enjoy two lessons of TUTOR without me. :) and i'll come back and rely on your theory book XD. stay cool man~ like sarah le ice cream . HA HA HA

Rosa Nguyen/ Uyen : sorry for maybe ruining your city trip but amy didnt do anything. We just asked the guys and they just said yes. i think its all misunderstanding. Please dont blame amy. and have fun on your trip.

Karl Li: i'll leave you be for 10 days to settle down a bit. maybe things will change by then. We'll see. being friends is totally enough for me. :)

Alex Bui: Don't be so depressed all the time. dont let people depressionlise you. dont take things seriously all the time. waw. i can smell your bad smell atm XD. just. dont suicide :)

Bryan Bui: please works things out. i wuna see good news when i come back. preferablly you guys work it out WAY sooner. but question: what do you want? try to stay alive. you're as clumsy as your girlfriend.

Osmond Lao: come to city! ('citys boring') but its fun, friends! ('meh') YOU SUCK.

Wells. see you guys :)


PS. if you read this. can you tell everyone what i said? or to come here. THANKS

it is now 12.40. i needa continue packing..

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

24/09/2008

wells. i realised.
as long as this person is around, in this situation. i will always be a bit down. and sometimes i let it get out control, i will be very very pissed. they made me have mood swings. i was full on raging twice in a week. i dont that.. hard to believe aye? SUCKS. one human can do so much without realising. sigh sigh sigh.

ANYWAYS
house was so sad :( . the ending
but funny quote!
'she dumped me after i lost 85 pounds. she said there was less of me to love' - House

last day of sport with karney. how very very sad.
i will never look at a boy the same way ever again. some people know why ==
grass fight(L) i'll never forget yous :')
another term of school sport to look forward to.........

nts. never let my sister go on the comp while me being sign on still ==
nt everyone: try not to say anything ever again while im away. please and thanks~ :)

GOING VIETNAM ON SATURDAY IN THEEARLY MORNING. WAKE UP AT BASICALLY 4AM. FLY TO MELBOURNE AT 7AM. THEN WHO KNOWS WHAT. REMEMBER TO MISS ME CUZ I MIGHT NOT MAKE IT BACK...

the end

listening to : seventeen forever - metro station

id like to add..

human numberFIVE: i think atm you piss me off the most. everything is alright in your life. you only care about those people. you forgot about the rest of us. or maybe just me. who knows. WHO CARES.

21/09/2008

im in a not good mood. i feel like screaming at everyone who talks to me. probably because everyone is giving my so much shit ==. i'm only human man. I HAVE FEELINGS TOO.

amy ford style?

human numberONE: do you even care what i think? dont you know how important it is? dont you care that i care about other people? dont you know once i said 'yes' to them, its my responsibility to complete the favour? why do you think you're always right. i dont want to scream but i have to scream if you scream at me.

human numberTWO: are you even worth my efforts? why am i doing this for you. WHY WHY WHY WHY! cuz you're my friend? even though i dont really wuna do it. do you know what i had to go through? you dont even care. all you care about is **************** . i couldve said no. so my fault.

human numberTHREE: YOU TALK TOO MUCH. YOU FRUSTRATE ME LIKE THERES NO TOMRROW. EVERY FREAKING DAY! THATS WHY I SCREAM AT YOU ALL THE TIME.

human numberFOUR: you want to know everything. EVERYTHING. and you give me that look when i dont tell you. that sucks a bit too. do you really care or do you just want to know. find a different way to care for me then.
all that in a day..

wells. in the end. i have no one who i can really go to. who i want to go to. anyone who would check up on me by themselves. i could just die and no one would know. apart from the people who live with me.. for obvious reasons.. maybe i'll fly away with my family. start off at a new page. that sounds nice.or else go to melbourne. live with my dad. somewhere where i like my relatives. where i feel at home...

17/09/2008

MUST OBEY!
all thanks to SHAKESPEARE and my english teacher, i am now obsessed with 'must obey' for today.
example! judy must obey tan

(6:28 PM) [=_o] tan:	and why must judy masturbate

(6:33 PM) [=_o] tan:	according to ethical issues act 1988, you're violating it, imma sue you for thousands
(6:34 PM) - my name is ℓis:	what..?
(6:34 PM) - my name is ℓis:	violating what
(6:34 PM) - my name is ℓis:	your woman?
(6:34 PM) [=_o] tan:

(6:48 PM) bryan. ill never:	but masturbating is so icky

(6:58 PM) bryan. ill never:	i dont see why guys wanna
(6:59 PM) - my name is ℓis:	cuz they're horny bastards
(6:59 PM) bryan. ill never:	yeah but...
(6:59 PM) bryan. ill never:	its so desperate

haha... :)

(6:18 PM) - my name is ℓis:	gosh. i hope you never stop liking boys XD

remember that amy!

(4:44 PM) × joannieee:	the council came to ask about a complaint that was made about a dog biting someone. adn then said that if we want to keep our dog. we have to pay 165 +

D= poor joannie and her lost dogs ><

today:
everyone was a bit sad. or very sad. but then everything went a bit better. or really better :D
100% happy please. (if target sees this.. im sorry..?)

from clovers to mowed grass XD. the enviro friendly way of having fun :D (Y)
do try it (dilma? tea people.. im sorry?)

THE END

listening to : nova FM

16/09/2008

1) yesterday i was in a terrible mood near the end. went to sleep in a terrible mood. i let that 'situation' run through my head all night. Today, i woke up .. not thinking about it anymore. I only realised when i came home from school that i dont care about it as much anymore. I think i have changed my feeling towards the situation. Main thing that helped me today was that i realised how happy it is to be around friends, making friends, and getting closer to people. It really made me happy. And i only realised at the end of the day. I still care at the situtation.. but in a less, or different way. Maybe in a neutral way. All i know is that im not letting it make me feel upset.

SO HAPPY! XD
love~ friends.

2) I would like to ask what happened. but im not the one to know. so thats okay. hope everything turns out right.

3) My passport might not be able to be made in time so i might not end up going. :S that sucks? after all that drama im might not go anymore==. i was actually starting to look forward to it a bit.

4) Amy made it for jap exchange and TWO of joannies dogs are gone D= . I suggested ten million suggestoins but they dont work ><

5) Being somewhat ignored but thats okay. im in too good of a mood :)

listening to: Fussy - End of Fashion

07/09/2008

warning! there are probably MANY MANY typos.

firstly. lets talk about YESTERDAY.
yesterday was moon fest. i missed most of it cuz everyone went at like.. early.
i got so bored so i decided to come a bit earlier. ended up walking out at 5. :)
cuz i changed my outfit after i walked out the door. turned out to be THE WORSE decision EVER.
I was waiting infront of woolworths.. amy bryan joannie come.. we walk out.. i told amy about me changing clothes. then she goes 'you're so stupid!' 'you so stupid' 'i tell you why?' then creamed me == then too more hands came to my face ==...............................
deary me.
it went in my mouth. doesnt taste nice.
then we met up with judy and elena. at red lea. amanda rosa jenny was there too. then they creamed them too...
then amy&bryan got their hands on silly string. i couldnt take anymore so i went off with elena to find her mum. judy came along. i bet judy in running down the stairs :D
then we went to my house :) . cuz we felt like it. judy and elena cleaned their eyes. i changed my jacket. then we walked again.
walking back was fun :)
Me: hey its a raccoon!
Judy: OH COOOLL
then we spent a few mins explaining how i was joking and that it was possible for a raccoon to be there.
well we met up with everyone again and went to a restruant.
there were some new faces
-Allan Ly
-Tan
-and Victor
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anyways.
we went to noodle house.
judy rosa elena and amanda were on their own table. cuz they went early.
7 left. so we went to our own table (bryan allan amy victor me jenny & joannie)
i remember to mix amy a drink :D. all sauces included ;)

then we walked out... lizzie joined in .
we stopped to look at the noodle eating comp. bryan couldnt see. so tan took him up onto his shoulders. the old azn lady behind were like. 'have some self disapline!' then a bit later. 'dont hurt me!' 'have some self disapline!' in the azn lady voice of course.

anyways. i wanted to go cuz of that akwardness that we somehow caused. then someone said that it was BRYAN that kicked the women == . my gosh
made the whole group look bad.

next stop was some people dancing. lizzie wanted the guys to 'take it off' . bryan wanted the girls to 'take it off'.

i couldnt see properly. so i stood up on the chair. bryan pushed me off. then i think i pushed him back off.. then.. he went back on .. then i went back on. i forgot really. all i remember was that we some how fell off the chair. he falling off the chair. me falling on the chair. thank god everyone was alive. i sqeezed open my easy way ==. sticky hand and foot.

o i bumped into my sisters friend. she was handing out flyers for her film. everyone go! 'maximum choppage 2' i think? its only at fairfield. i can take you there :)

then rosa said the fireworks were at the park. so! we went to the park. but before we did, we went to rosas grandmas house for a toilet break. in the end we all got ice cream XD. emma joined us by then.
then to the park!. no fireworks. took lots of crappy group photos.

the fireworks went off at the buildings. rosa was WRONG.

we ran ran ran. then stopped at the lights cuz no one was bothered anymore. when the fireworks were over. everyone went home.

i got home. i let my sister wash my hair since she did a hair course for 2 weeks. that took 40 mins ==

then when i went to bed. i realise i still smelt like shaving cream. and i was sticky cuz of the easy way!!. it was too late to have a shower then.. it took me hours to fall asleep. too much excitement.
id love for this to happen again. lets hope it will.

today!
parra!
took train with amy&joannie. amy was basically wearing thesame wet smelly clothes from yesterday. met up with michelle. shop shop shop.
some teasing.
hometime.
nothing much

-the end.

listening to: shadowplay - the killers

ps. my yohgurt is overdued today. i ate it. i had diarrhoea. do you think its cuz of the yohgurt?

06/09/2008

yesterday was fun. it rained. so my judy surprisingly and jenny went to splashed in puddles. judy couldnt hack it anymore, since we were too good at wetting her, she went to get her lunch box to fill water into... then me and jenny ran away from her, hid from her, when she went to fill up her lunch box. that bought us 3 mins . she eventually founds us and splashed jenny :)
then she ran after me. we found ourselves back in the rain. then yeah. we all ended up wet. i had 2 periods to get dried. wasnt enough. o. bryan started a water fight in the rain. who knew people did that.
i got money from my mum today :)
so i can afford todays moon fest and tomrrow parramatta outing.
its still raining.
ive been timing ever since 11. its 3.14 atm. 4 hours of non-stop rain. sigh. but no one cares ==
no one but me.
moon fest> joannie amy and bryan are(going at 3.30) jenny. meeting up with judy&elena. and who knows when im going.

parra> me&joannie&amy. thats all for now.

the end~

listening to: NOVA FM

03/09/2008 TIME TO PRETEND!

okay. imma go for those. 'you make no sense!' & 'are you talking about love?' & 'i wuna know what you mean!' & 'WhyTF are you saying this stuff' BLOGS.

these days. i felt. awful.
not awful.
but i HATE just standing there.. or sitting there.. and watching everything go by. i cant go for it so i just watch.? denying isnt working. you CANT forget things like these. so i just join the crowd and laugh.
sometimes i just wuna go 'HEY! LOOK AT ME! ID LIKE TO TELL YOU THAT ...........................................'
but of course we all know thats IMPOSSIBLE.
i feel guilty. for feeling this way. and pretending like how i may have been.. 1.5 months ago?
but i must! for the greater good for atleast 2 people... ESPECIALLY one. i have my reasons.
i would add more. but i cant. cuz my close people MAY find out if i did..
but im SURE i'll get over this 'phase' soon. SOON. i damn hope so ==

end note: humans are strange.


listening to: Shake That - Eminem ft Nate Dogg.